I Am

I am an unlovable, terrible person.
That's what I tell myself when I cry.
It's why I need to be alone when tears start to flow,
it's why I break down into heart-wrenching sobs that seem
to
go
on
for
.......forever.

I know I am only human,
and that my vulnerability
only makes me more beautiful
But when I feel vulnerable,
I can't stop the impulse to
(hide.)

There are times I want to be a wallflower
to fade into the background,
and have you walk right by.
The pain of you seeing straight through me
is easier to bear
than the pain of being really seen.

If you see every flaw,
external and internal,
then surely,
you
will
RUN!!!!!

That's why I fight ope n  i   n    g       u         p
to
You.
You're too important to
lose.
I would burrow inside of you
if that wasn't
going to make me into a
parasite.

So please,
I know I'm hard to love,
but can you try to, anyways?


This poetry is copyright to Jess Johnson, and may not be used or reproduced without the author's permission. Please feel free to share or quote, but be kind, and always link back to me. <3